Forgiveness is the christian value. It is supposed to set you free. Like a balloon that is untied from the brick that's holding it down. Right now I'm mad at someone. And though people tell me that holding a grudge won't take me anywhere and will only eat me from inside, I don't want to forgive. I can't. Because forgiveness means making light of something that really hurted me and should never have taken place to start with. Forgiveness means patting myself on the back and saying everything is alright when it isn't. Forgiveness is something people want from me so we can all be happy and merry again and pretend nothing ever happened when it did. Forgiveness means trampling the person that I am and saying her feelings don't matter and that she has no reason to be upset. And I deserve better.