Some wounds shouldn't close. I want to remember the pain. To carry it with me so that I'll never ever let myself slip again. Until it is all undone, all wounds must be open. So many parts of me are dying. Therefore I must carry the guilt and the responsability. To look openly at my own reckage, stare it in the eye and never forget. Until I'm back on my feet forgiveness is not an opinion. I was lost, but now am found. And there are many miles I now have to tread again.